Love, life & Loss

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Love, life & loss, all intertwined into one. 

​Love is a powerful thing.
It can make everything beautiful yet it can take your world down.

Life is so full of wonders.
​The best is yet to come.

Loss, is a devastation and in that moment,
you are forever changed.

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I had never been afraid of death. In fact, I have always thought death was beautiful. If you know Tarot, carte tredici (card 13) is Death, a symbolic ending that may bring about a beginning of something far more valuable and important. However, I finally understood the fear of death when he was at the doorstep of my loved one. 

Half my life, I had spent with my beloved dog. For him, he had spent his entire life with me. Funny isn't it? My life has only just begun and yet his is on the verge of ending. He wasn't just a normal pet, he was my family, my comfort and my partner in crime. Everyday, I would wish for him to stay with me forever. I dreaded for this day to come because I knew nobody could escape Death. Perhaps it might be a good thing for him to shorten his sufferings, but I can't bear the thought of losing him forever. 

To anyone who's reading this who have loved and lost, find the courage to face the pain. Avoiding it might cause deeper hurt to yourself instead. Be it through the hands of death or just going through the process of getting to unknow somebody, know that with Death comes new opportunities and possibilities. Sometimes you need to let go in order to embrace what's in store for you. 

"It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." 

Our hearts may be broken but let's hope that they are broken open for us to experience life in a much deeper & meaningful way. Life is full of wonders, and death might just be a beginning.

I will miss you so very much my little munchkin. I will miss your silly antics like taking over my bed and snuggling beside me on rainy nights because you are afraid of the thunder. I will miss you slapping me awake just so that I could pet & hug you because I was overseas for weeks. I will miss your kisses that are only for me because I taught you so (fiercely possessive lol) and your squishy little button nose. I will always think of you whenever I am eating apples because you will always be there eating the other half of every slice. I will miss you accompanying me on late nights when I have to stay up just so that I am not alone. I will miss your tiny tail wagging in happiness.

In your short span of life, you have taught me love, life and loss. You have taught me the value of love and to treasure those around me. You have taught me how to embrace life and live it to the fullest like how you did with yours. You have taught me the beauty in loss. To some you may just be a dog, but to me, you are one wise little fella and definitely a bundle of joy. You will always be my best friend and partner in crime (stealing food from the fridge). Be strong and see you on the other side. You will always be in my heart until we meet again. 

All my heart, 
Winter